Friday, January 28, 2011

Public Service Announcement

People, People, People.....

Please don't complain about being pregnant, or mention you are tired of being pregnant on FB, when there are so many who wish and pray to be in your position.

I dunno.... maybe I am just overly sensitive this morning.........

Thursday, January 27, 2011

An award and such...

I've been given an award by! How awesome!

Now I must link the awesome person who gave me the award, tell 7 things about myself, award 15 great blogger, and inform those bloggers of the award. I am not sure I will be able to do all of this, but I will give it the ol' college try! ;-)

  1. I have an amazing 8 yr old daughter and I have been TTC #2 for almost 15 months with no success.
  2. I watch way too much TV than I probably should. I have all kinds of guilty reality tv pleasures ranging Jersey Shore, Housewives (all of them) to Teen Mom.
  3. Loose strands of hair creeps me out, especially when its wet. I gag everytime I try to pick it up.
  4. I love the way cabbage patch kids smell. I still hung on to mine from when I was a kid, and purchased a few for Mooshkah, and I smell them from time to time.
  5. H and I were best friends for about 14 years before we decided to persue a relationship. We met in highschool. We both dated our share of losers before we discovered what was right under our nose.
  6. Outside of blogging and reading blogs. I LOOOOOVE reading fiction. Its my outlet when I am stressed. Its so easy to feel alone in the TTC world. I am so appreciative of my blooger friends who keep me encouraged and let me know I am not alone.
  7. Reapeating #1. I truly pray that 2011 is our year. My deepest fear is finding out the only method that will help us conceive is something that we can't afford...

I will award bloggers tomorrow..........

I think I am out for this cycle...

I was really hopeful on Tuesday. I wasn't feeling my best due to fighting this cold, but around 1:00 am early Wednesday morning I was awaken by a really upset, nauseous stomach. I won't go into the TMI details, but throwing up was part of it. Although I felt terrible, I couldn't help but get excited about what that could mean.

I stayed home yesterday to rest. I prayed that this wasn't a flu bug, and I could actually be preggers. Well...... around early evening, I began to spot....... Figures. Just another way for the Reproductive Gods to make a fool out of me again.

Since then, I have been spotting off and on. I am not sure if this means AF is on her way, or my body is going back to its irregular, spot-when-it-freakin'-feels-like ways. I just feel so defeated once again. I haven't even told H yet. This time around, I dread saying those words out loud. I am not sure why, I've had tons of practice month after month.

I have to find a new OBGYN. My insurance for my new job doesn't kick in until Feb 1st. I am not sure if my RE is covered with this insurance. I just feel like I am starting all over on this heartbreaking journey.

On the up side... I was given an award! When I get home I will nominate and tell a few things about me.

Monday, January 24, 2011

I don't have the nerve....

to test.....

Still no AF as of yet. I know I'm not preggers, but I just rather see AF then one little line... silly huh...

Maybe I will get enough nerve later in the week. I'm doing a really good job at not obsessing this time around.

Although last night, I teared up watching Extreme Births on TLC,( I think that was he channel)

I will just focus on getting rid of this pesky headcold that decided to visit me yesterday...

Friday, January 14, 2011

Not sure what to think.

This has been such a crazy time for me with the move and the new job. TTC has been the furthest from my mind. I can only think of maybe 2 times this cycle were H and I DTD. Luckily, right before the move I recorded my LMP on the computer. December 12,....... So here it is, no AF. The last 2 cycles have been pretty normal since I have been on metformin. I am not sure what to think here. I'm wondering if my cycles is going back to being irregular? Because I really have been terrible on my diet during the holidays. I don't want to get my hopes up and I am scared to POAS for fear of seeing that one little line. I don't feel any symptoms, and looking back, I don't think our DTD was on the fertile days. UGH..............

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

2010 - A Year In Review....

I stole this from a few other blogs........

1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?

Met with a RE.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

No, I didn't really lose that much weight and I didn't get preggers. This year, I don't think I will make any.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

No, but tons became pregnant. Here's hoping 2011 will be my year.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Yes, my uncle.

5. What countries did you visit?


6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you didn’t have in 2010?

Healthy pregnancy and baby (ies). :-)

7. What dates from 2010 will be etched upon your memory, and why?

June - began the clomid cycles. November - Mom got clean bill of health; Referred to RE and put on Metformin. December - celebrated our first anniversary, and offered new position and move to different city.

8. What was your biggest achievement of this year?

Honestly, I don't feel like I really had one.

9. What was your biggest failure?

TCC and IF obsessed, and not just enjoying life, and counting my blessing.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?


11. What was the best thing you bought?

LOL, and American Girl Doll. Seeing the smile on my daughter's face and the joy.... priceless.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Geez, drawing a blank here...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Me. At times I can be my worst enemy. Going through TCC disappointments every month, and not have a OB really doing all they can..... ugh

14. Where did most your money go?

household expenses

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Being offered this new position which would allow me to be closer to my parents.

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?

Another blank...

17. Compared to this time last year, are you: a) happier or sadder? b) thinner or fatter? c) richer or poorer?

a. happier b. just a tad thinner c. poorer due to moving expenses, and getting situated.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Not dwelling and being more proactive.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Letting things get to me so easily.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

Spent time with family, packing and moving.

21. What was your favorite TV program?

So many: Real Housewives, The Game, Cougartown, Modern Family, Office, Jersey Shore, and tons more guilty pleasures I am too embarrased to type! lol

22. What was the best book you read?

Can't think of one for 2010. Spent most of the time reading blogs and TTC forums, with a few Fiction Novels to keep my mind off things at times.

23. What did you want and get?

A. eReader, and gift cards. Got both.

24. What did you want and not get?

Pregnant and winning the lottery! lol

25. What was your favorite film of 2010?

First thing that comes to mind is Blind Side (is that 2010?) and Couples Reteat, and Grown ups...

26. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 31 last July. I went to dinner at Red Lobster with Family. Its a tradition. I have been going there for years with my birthday.

27. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Not focusing so much on TTC and put my focus other places.

28. Who did you miss?

My old self. She's back though!

29. Who was the best new person you met?

Blogger friends! SO supportive and awesome!

30. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.

Keep the faith, and don't lose sight of self. Sidebar: you can't count on everbody.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Happy New Year!!

Geeze! I've been away for so long.

I have been so busy. Here is a quick summary:

I have officially moved to a new city, and begun a new job. Today is my second day. We still have tons of boxes to unpack. Mooshkah has started a new school and loves it!

As for TTC, It has been the last thing on my mind! lol I don't even know what Cycle day I am on! lol. Hopefully, things will get back to normal soon!

I hope everyone had a wonderful Holiday and a Happy New Year.

I have so many blogs to catch up on....... (smile)