Update...

AF is still here. Yup... been bleeding over a month now....

I have a Doctor appointment this Friday with a new OBGYN. I am not sure what will happen, considering I am still freakin bleeding. I hope this will be more than just a consultation. I hope this doctor will be compassionate and a little more aggressive....

When I began calling around to different OBGYN's to see if they're taking new patients (there isn't nearly as many as where I was living a few months ago), so many were full or not taking anyone unless you are preggers. I wanted to say so bad to say to them, "well I am trying to be, working to be...does that count? Is that good enough?"

I came across this office who has about 5 OBGYN's in there. I spoke with the nurse. Out of frustration/desperation, I spilled the last years events. Everything from clomid cycles, metformin, irregular bleeding, RE referral, everything. I then disclose how frustrated and heartbreaking this has been, and I really want a doctor who understands that, who will take the time to explain things to me, not throw everything under the rug and say "It will happen", etc.... I can't believe I went on and on. The nurse was very sweet. She begin telling me her story, of how long it took, and she completely understands what I am going through, etc. There is a brand new doctor there, and she told me he is really nice, and she suggest I try him out.

Well, I meet with him this Friday. I am nervous. I don't want to be disappointment. I want to feel like there is at least a plan in place, and I want him to make this freakin bleeding stop!

Wordless Wednesday.....

AF over stayed her welcome. She is still here. Been here since the end of January... Yup, you read that correctly, SHE IS STILL HERE.... She won't take a hint and leave already.... ^$&$@!!

Wishing Everyone....

... A Happy Valentine's Day!!!!! :-)

Put Me In The Game, Coach!

How in the heck am I supposed TTC if I haven't stopped spotting since the end of Jan? Normally for me AF gets pretty heavy, but this time, its just been spotting to light-flow constantly since the end of Jan. I just want it to go away so we can get back to TTC. I just feel like I can't get a break! It's one thing to try and to not succeed, but now I can't even try! ugh.....

In other news, Friday, after the 3 snow days; I jumped out on a limb and applied for grad school. I have been wanting to do this for sometime. After I got married, I kept putting it off in case I got pregnant. Well, I guess I am tired of putting my life on hold, for something that may not be in the cards. I am so nervous. I pray I get in. My undergrad gpa was not as good as it should have been. It's not horrible, but could be better. I finished my undergrad around 7/8 years ago, so I hope they take that into account. I decided not to tell anyone, not even H. That way I can avoid any questions and keep this just for me. Fingers crossed!

At least this gives me something else to obsess on! ;-)

Enjoying 3 snow days, should not bring tears....

I received an email from a co-worker (friend) from my previous job. She was catching me up on all the updates there. I didn't get passed the 2nd paragraph. Since I left in December 2010, there have been 3 pregnancy announcements. (you may remember a few blogs ago where I was I surrounded by pregnancy announcements) However, the one that hit hard, was learning that one of the advisors that used to work in my department is now expecting their 2nd child. It seems like yesterday they had their first one. Although I am happy for them, this is just another magnifier on my situation. Lapped yet again. When will it be my turn? Seriously, when will it be? I am just really bummed right now.......