WTH?

So I was on one of my many TTC boards/forums, and I came across this pic that someone used as their avi. WTH indeed! For some reason this image gives me the willies. Please tell me this is not a real doll?




On a humorous note........ even Barbie got knocked up before I ;-)

2 Gold Stars......

...... For me!!

Logged into facebook only to be blind-sighted by a "We are pregnant" status update. And for once, I didn't cringe, or did it bum me out! I am doing pretty good. Congrats to them.



.......Clomid day 6............

Day 5!!

Today is Day 5! I have begun my 3rd round of Clomid.

Normally I take Clomid in the evening, but not this morning. I woke up early to take my little 2 tablets! I'm still feeling pretty good, outside of this nagging headache.

fingers crossed!

Operation: Take My Mind Off TTC!!!

The last couple of days I've had a few (just a few) moments of lows. Feeling the occasional discouragement that this won't be our month, or making snarky comments whenever I see those POAS commercials (that come on way too often if you ask me!!), or any mention of pregnancy on my favorite shows will get an automatic eye roll.

Maybe its because of the severe beating AF is giving me? I mean she really has it out for me! lol Nonetheless, I am determine to get my positive mojo back! I will be hopeful that this is our month, and if it we aren't successful, then positive it will be the next month. I will try not to make this my main focus of everyday, and I will not read anything into any symptom.

To accomplish this I will create a list of things to occupy my time and my brain!

• JUST READ: I just picked up a new book to read. I use to read all the time. Whenever I was stressed, reading would be my stress reliever, and take my mind off of things.

• JUST DYE:I picked up some hair dye this morning on my way to work. I have been wanting to change my hair in some kind of way. I don't want to cut it just yet, but I thought Hey? Why not color it?? Years ago, I used to color my hair as often as the wind blew. Maybe this new change will help me with my new outlook.
  

• JUST DECORATE: I am so sick and tired of looking at our non decorated bedroom, and bedding. When it comes to home decor and color palettes I am never content. My taste change so frequently. When H and I registered for our wedding, we pick this bedding that at the time I thought was nice. (although he more than I) We even picked coordinated pieces for the bathroom. Now I hate them both. So once again, I am on the hunt for new bedding. H was complaining about the duvet slipping from the duvet clips. I thought that was the perfect opportunity to tell him that we (really me) need to get a new comfortable set and decor. His response: I should have kept my mouth shut. :-)

• JUST SORT: It's time for a reality check. "I will never be able to fit you". I am holding on to so many jeans, tops, jackets, slacks, that I will most likely never fit again. I really need to give up the dream and get rid of those things. Also, Mooshkah has outgrown a lot of things. I will designate a weekend to get this done.

• JUST SEARCH: H and I grew up in the same town. So both of our parents still reside there. We currently live about a little over an hour away from them. Which really isn't that bad. Our parents aren't getting any younger and I really would like to live closer to them. I've put in application for a gig there, so now I am just in the waiting phase to see if I get an interview. (prayers Please) I will continue to search for other job opportunities closer to family.

• JUST MOVE: In the event that I get a job closer (fingers crossed) We will have to move. I am not one for not being prepared, so I have been scanning possible locations, neighborhoods to move and bookmarking them.

• JUST LAUGH: I am so passed due for a adult gathering. I want to either have a girls night, or a couples night with some of my friends.
  

These things are enough to take my mind off of TTC at least for the month of October. Who am I kidding?? lol TTC will still be on my mind, but I will give it my best shot to put my focus elsewhere.

Dreamin'................

During the night, I had 3 seperate pregnancy dreams back to back to back. Each one told a different story but all of them had a happy ending of me finding out I was pregnant. I don't put too much in dreams, but I hope this is sign of things to come. :-)

AF decided to show up today! YAY!!

Question, do you count spotting as day 1? Or do you wait until it looks like true AF?

waiting...

This weekend really feels like fall is here. It has been so chilly. Yuck, I feel like I am getting sick. UGH.

Still waiting on the dreaded AF. She should be here any day now..... The last few cycles of provera, AF came within 3 days, but she is taking her time with this cycle. I am so ready to begin this next cycle. I really feel like this month could be our month. *fingers crossed* :-) I am not sure why I feel so upbeat about this cycle, but I hope this feeling lasts.

All About "Us"

I saw this survey on several other blogs and I just had to do it too!


1. When is your “engagement” anniversary:
How terrible is it that I don't know the date? LOL I do know it was in March! lol

2. When is your “marriage” anniversary:
December 5th

3. How long have you known your spouse:
17 years... WOW!!

4. How long did you date/court before you were engaged:
Off and on for about 3 years

5. Where did you meet your spouse for the first time?
Gym class in high school

6. What is your spouse’s full name:
"H"

7. Do you have any children:
None together, but we are TTC

8. How many – boys/girls:
-

9. Do you have any house pets:
no

10. Do you own a house or rent:
Own

11. Do you live in the country or town/city:
City

12. What is one of your favorite activities together:
Watching TV, being silly

13. Do you have a favorite vacation spot:
We love cruises!

14. When did you first kiss?
a week after we started dating

15. What church do you attend?
we attend church

16. Is this the church you were married in:
Yes

17. What town is your current address at:
Midwest

18. Do you work or stay at home:
Work

19. Where did you go on your honeymoon:
Western Carribean

20. What was the funniest gift you gave when dating?
hand-warmers, and a VHS tape of his favorite movie when he was a kid.

21. How long have you been together?
2 years

22. How long did you know each other before you started dating?
13 years

23. Who asked who out?
No one really asked each other out. We just sort of turned into a couple.

24. How old are each of you?
Both in our early 30's

25. Where do each of you go to school?
Neither one of us are in school

26. Which situation is the hardest on you as a couple?
TTC

27. Did you go to the same school?
yes

28. Are you from the same home town?
sort of

29. Who is smarter?
depends... we both are

30. Who is more sensitive?
me

31. Where do you eat out most as a couple?
Chipotle, Panda Express

32. Where is the farthest you two have traveled together as a couple?
Caribbean

33. Who has the craziest exes?
umm......neither now?

34. Who has the worse temper?
He does.

35. Who does the cooking?
He more than I

36. Who is more social?
me

37. Who is the neat-freak?
depends

38. Who is more stubborn?
He is.

39. Who hogs the bed?
me

40. Who wakes up earlier?
He does.

41. Where was your first date?
lunch date at Applebees

42. Who had more boyfriends/girlfriends?
me

43. Do you get flowers often?
No

44. How do you spend the holidays?
With both of our families

45. Who is more jealous?
He is

46. How long did it take to get serious?
Not long

47. Who eats more?
me

48. Who does the laundry?
both

49. Who’s better with the computer?
He is

50. Leave a piece of advice for the other couples.
Communication is very important. Try to find the humor in things.